(Always forget about this until I see someone else post.)
Since starting my writing journey I have learned a lot about myself. I learned I could write a book and publish it. I learned I could format. I learned I don't have a melt down when I get a low review (I just get a little drunk.) I learned that my writing has improved. I learned I can point out passive voice. Lots of positive stuff I have learned along the way, but there's also been a few negative things I've learned.
Like the fact I really have no confidence. You look at Being Human's page on goodreads and you'll see I have mostly four an five star ratings and good reviews. Every month I sell books and so far no one has blasted me in a review as a horrible writer. Even my lower reviews have noted something they enjoyed or thought was well done. But still, I tend to sit here waiting for the ball to drop and people realize I'm not that good. When people tell me they loved my writing I find it hard to believe. My writing buddy, Daniel A. Kaine, even asked me about it one day (when I was ranting him) and my reply was, "No, I have no confidence in myself."
You see, it's easy to fake confidence online. I can put smiley faces in my tweets or LOL and everything is fine and dandy. Even though it's not. I'm just as terrified thinking about approaching a book blogger to review my book today as I was when I first published Being Human. I've shied away from submitting to places that others have, quick to assume they won't want to feature me because I have the bare minimum requirements for their site. Others have talked about going to schools to talk to do a reading, or even going to a weekly writer's group. All that stuff just terrifies me.
I do manage though. I suck it up and hire someone to organize a blog tour with lots of reviews. I've even submitted the book to a few sites to be featured. I talk and tweet to people, face to face I am not a talker at all. If you knew me in real life you'd be shocked at how chatty I get on twitter. Blogging is easy too because I get to hide behind a computer screen.
I am an introvert to the core. You have to drag me kicking and screaming into the spotlight. It makes it hard. I do want my writing to be read and enjoyed, but I'm working against my nature.
PS: For my Z post for the A to Z challenge I'm giving away a signed copy of my book. You should go enter. It will help build my confidence. ;)