We are into the second week of 2012, and let me admit, my writing is still halted. I've done some. Finished a short story along the same lines of Influence of Love, but as for Being Vampire? I keep pushing it off. At first, I wasn't sure why I kept finding excuses not to start typing it up. I know it will unblock me. I'm not the type of writer to write out of order, so the fact the story got out of order has ground me to a halt. Writing it in order will fix that.
So why do I keep procrastinating?
Putting it bluntly, I'm terrified. It wasn't until the other day when I was fretting and worrying over something, and like all things that really worry me, eventually turning that worry on myself, did I realize why I was struggling so much. I'm scared to write this sequel. Let's face it, in movies, most sequels are never as good as the first movie. A few recent movies come to mind. Sherlock Holmes 2. While I enjoyed it, I didn't think it was as good as the first. The Transformers movies. The first one was amazing, the second one okay, and the third was horrid. I complained through the whole movie.
The thing is, with books, it tends to be different. The series usually get better as each book is released. And that's why I'm so worried. I'm scared the sequel won't be as good, and my struggles to get it written don't help. Getting this first draft out has been one struggle after another, and it's still not finished!
I don't want to let people down. If you look at my reviews, they aren't half bad. A few end with "Read this now." while other people have told me Being Human made them cry. Can you see the pressure to make the sequel just as good, if not better, building? It's really hard not to think about, and each time I think about how I need to start typing Being Vampire out, I find yet another reason not to.
In the end, I know I'm just going to have to suck it up and start writing. Maybe a few good kicks in the butt will get me in gear. Or some tweets guilt tripping me into action. Comments cheering me on. Anyone want to volunteer?