Lately, I've been feeling insecure about what I'm doing. It's not for the lack of trying, because I am. No, it's the response I'm getting from trying. Which is silence. I use bitly to track my links to my books on Smashwords, Amazon, and B&N. Usually, the tracking shows something, but lately, there's been nothing. No one is clicking. The other day I got my bookmarks in and excitedly tweeted about it. Only a few friends said anything. Same with my request for guests. Only a few responses or comments.
It had me sitting back and wondering, Why am I bothering? What happened? Then I start to panic. Am I being too pushy? Am I bugging people so they're just ignoring me? We all know writers don't need to panic about stuff like that. It gets in the way of creativity and word count. I started feeling like the world was flying by and all my yelling and arm waving was being ignored. Which is also bad for word count. I'd stare at my work in progress and know how the story needed to go, but the words weren't there. They are missing from my head, replaced by panic and fear.
Then another writer on twitter wondered if her tweeting her book links really did anything. She said sales didn't seem affected when she tweeted or didn't tweet. I replied back saying I was noticing the same too. That made me feel slightly better, but made me wonder even more, Why bother?
My only solution at the time was to step back and take a break from worrying about stats and hits and visitors. I decided to ease up on how often I blog. I'm still going to do the guest post on Friday for #whyIwrite (if you want to be a guest and talk about why you love to write, email me at patricialynne07(@)gmail.(.)com) and I think I'll post on Monday or Tuesday. But not Wednesday unless it's for a bloghop. I'll focus more on content and not quantity because I think I was letting myself get away from that. Getting back into blog hops has helped too. I always enjoyed writing up posts for a hop and then going to others and seeing what they said. If the list was short enough, I always tried to comment on everyone's blog.
Also, knitting helped. This week I've made six hats and one scarf. Afterwards, I feel so relaxed and accomplished. Of course, the downside is I'm so relaxed I don't feel like writing. In fact, I want to nap. ^^;;
Isn't this a cute hat? I've known how to knit for ages, but only recently learned to purl.