I was working on a story the other day. My muse was being quiet so I was struggling with what I wanted to say. I hate when that happens because usually I can see what I want to happen as a movie scene but the words escape me. This time though I wasn't feeling the writer love. I kept wondering, "Is this story any good? Is it original enough?"
Now you don't have to tell me there isn't an original idea left. I am well aware of that. The most I can hope to do with any story I write is give it a new twist.
Still, this story brought up questions. I had no answers. The story is written around the end of 1800s/beginning of 1900s. - not exactly sure on the date yet and have never tried to write a historical type story. I haven't read many stories set in that time. I'm doing a lot of googling, asking questions about that time period, the dialogue I use is way different as I'm thinking on movies I've seen set in that time. I feel I'm flying blind and that makes me feel vulnerable.
What if this exact same story is out there and I just have no idea it exists? What if I screw up something big that has to do with the time I'm writing in? What if the story just sucks?
You can see why I might be feeling insecure.
I try to tell myself there's no written law that says every story I write I have to attempt to publish. I can write a story, publish it then skip over the next one. It's not a waste, each story I write helps me become a better writer. That could have been just a bad writing day and any story I looked at I'd wonder why I was bothering. Bad days happen and let's face it, they suck. Maybe a bad day is a sign I need to take a break from my writing, read a book or hang with some friends. Maybe a bad day is my muse deciding she wants a break to recharge. Or maybe it's all in my head. Kind of like my characters.