When I first started writing it was very carefree. I wasn't doing it for anyone but myself. I didn't think about adverbs, tense, fluff words or show not tell. Those things didn't matter to me because I didn't know about them. I just wrote.
Now though, writing is so different. Everything I've learned is crowded in my head, shouting rules to me as I write. I get anxious and nervous when I open a word file. Am I over using words? Is my plot on track? What if this part needs to be cut later? It's hard to sit down and write that first draft with no worries. I have to keep reminding myself: Just write. Once that's done go back and edit.
It makes me wish for those early days before I knew anything about writing. So carefree and full of unhindered creativity. It'd be kind of nice to get back to that. I'm not saying unlearn everything I know but forget temporarily until the first draft is done, then the knowledge can come back and I can start working on making the story into something decent.
It makes me wonder: Do all the rules and advice on writing hinder us once we start learning? When we get stressed over proper verb use or let thoughts of editing get in the way are we holding ourselves back? Maybe a little. Maybe when we open that new document we need to lock everything we know in a vault in our mind. Get our butt in the chair and write with no worries or cares about editing. Once that first draft is cranked out, we can open the vault of rules and knowledge. Turn that pile of words into a story that will capture the hearts of readers.