I'm getting to that critical point in my writing. There is little more I can do, I've had a few people read and give me their thoughts, I've reworked my query and now I have to decide what to do. But what do I do?
Since I've started this blog I've learned so much about the writing world. Tons of advice to sift through and a lot has been extremely helpful. The biggest thing I think I've learned is about agents and publishing. I've learned that agents get a ton of queries EACH DAY. They have to sift through those queries along with reading partials and full manuscripts. They slog through slush piles each day looking for a gem and when they find that gem they snatch it right?
The main thing I've learned about agents is they are really caring people. Even if they are rejecting you. Why? Because they want writers to succeed. That means they will pass up the gems. Not because it's not shiny enough but because they feel they can't do the gem justice. An agent will pass up an amazing story because they feel that is more fair than taking the story and having it sit unsold because they couldn't find someone interested in it. They pass it up in hopes another agent will be successful. (Of course sometimes a good story is passed up because there's no market for it either. After all it's the agent's job to sell the story and can you really blame them for passing on something they can't sell? I can't.)
And this is where I become lost.
I don't know what to do next. Query agents, wait for agent to read and respond. Then wait some more for agent to read the full manuscript then wait on editors and publishers. It's a big waiting game. Then once I get through all that, I have to cross my fingers and hope for the best.
My other option is to do it myself. Self publish. A feat that requires no less work. I have to find my own editor, book cover designer, do my own promotion. I have to shell out my own money. And again, I have to cross my fingers and hope. The only real difference I see is I can get my story out faster. I don't have to wait for an agent or editor or publisher. I'm the publisher.
I'm leaning towards self publish, I am a do-it-yourself kind of gal and self publishing is an exciting new frontier. But I'm a bit loathed to pass up snagging an agent and the dream that through traditional I can hit it big like the authors I love. I'm torn and lost, being pulled in two directions. I think I need a moment of zen. Or any a bazillion links to help me make my decision.